The Tightrope of perfectionsim

I have always liked this song and have posted it as encouragement in emails to people or on their facebook statuses (or is it stati???).  But I thought about it differently this morning.  mainly because of this line:

“Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever think you are less than, less than perfect……you are perfect to me.”

That sounds very sweet.  It really does……unless one is a perfectionist.

Now, to most people, I do not seem like a perfectionist.  My house is not obsessively sanitized.  The cans in my pantry do not all face the front.  Do not even try to make sense of the books on my bookshelves.  A quick read through all of my blog entries will reveal several (okay many) typographical errors.  Right now there are several Hardees cups in my car, along with a myriad of receipts in the pocket on my car door.

My perfectionism manifests in its own ways, however.  I admit to being rather all or nothing in my estimation of myself.  The phrase from The Empire Strikes Back: “Do or do not… there is no try.” is very compelling, but for an all or nothing perfectionist it can be like a death Star (lol…see what I did there?)  We are always walking a tightrope, we are always precarious, we are always a bit on guard, knowing it is just a matter of time before, you guessed it, humanity steps in.  because as far as I know I am not an android (yes, I am mixing Star Wars and Star Trek metaphors here, I know).  So it is not a matter of IF I will slip off the rope, but when.  And taking it further, the rope itself is a myth.  No matter how well I may seem to be doing, I am not now, nor have I ever been, nor will I ever be perfect.

So…in reflecting upon a song I do still enjoy, I have to say I see those quoted lyrics, “You are perfect to me,” a bit differently now.  because truly, I do not want anyone in my life who believes I am perfect…….I want people in my life who are well acquainted with my imperfections…..and yet they stick around.

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